Anyone love their spouse but not actually in love with them?

I am sorry that you are going through a hard time in your marriage. I was once in your situation. I was married to my best friend. We had a good relationship in that way but I was lonely and always thought is there something more. Some people can live forever with their best friend and be perfectly happy, others are looking for something else. After many conversations and promises of changes I realized that there is nothing that can change that love into the love I always wanted. Now I am divorced, and I am in a new relationship. It was not until I felt the love of another that I could feel the love that I always day dreamed about. Life is filled with tough choices and sometimes we do not know what path to take, but deep down inside you can find the answers and it is your happiness that is most important. As for the religious aspect of this situation, it will be difficult and you may be judged and can also effect the relationship you have with your husband's family. You need to live for yourself and not for what others think of you. I know easier said then done. The only one who can judge is God and God knows your heart is filled with good intentions. Good luck, I wish you the best and happiness.